31st August

No Appetite.

Just yesterday (30th August, Sunday). I only ate one meal. And it's lunch which contains 3 fried thighs. Idk Why. And I'm not finishing my all time FAVOURITE RAMEN. Not even half, and I feel like throwing up.

Oh WELL.

Today TAFE, our class were assigned to make a meal for the childrens or toddlers.

Which is CUTE!

Teacher told us that one time, a girl made a fruit candle, WHICH IS AWESOME! Saw the picture. The base is apple, cut up in the middle, and what was it again. But a piece of orange as fire lit on the (fruit) candle.

I just made up a strawberry thing, with Yoghurt (Cheese).

Quite healthy. Before that, I thought of baking a vanilla muffin with cherry. But!

NO BAKING

NO COOKING
NO USING ELECTRICITY

DAMN.

Anyways, this is my finished work. Not pretty.

Took picture with STUPID PHONE.

Oh yeah, got a new phone. Looks like:

EXCUSE MY HAND. LOL!

15th August

Got Slapped, Again.

Ever felt the pain when a extreme muscly arm slap you across the face? I have. And it's not just this once. I kinda lost count.

You know. I've been thinking of suicide. Not because of the slap. NO WAY. But because how I'm treating my life right now. So Boring. I look at someone else's facebook. And saw that she have a boyfriend. And I thought "What am I doing here? Always...?" When my brother keeps telling me to "Grow up" or "Wake Up" or "Get a Life".

First reason is treating my life as a boring adventure.

Second is always choosing the wrong path to take.

Third is having a family that won't even talk to you.

Fourth, having a brother to always tell you to "Get A LIFE".

Fifth, is to be a crybaby at home.

Ahhh...~ My life sucks. I know someday, I'll end up being suicidal. That's what I learnt in PD/H/PE. "If an individual always thinking of suicide, they will commit it soon".
I just wanna pray.

Dear LORD,
Please end my life quickly.

11th AUGUST.

A BITCHY SCHOOL girl, AND HITACHIIN! AND ANIME!
I wish I have a photo of that bitchy girl but it will be too mean.

Yesterday as I was walking back to my home, looking forward to watch my all time favourite "ANIME" I saw a guy. And shit me not, he looks exactly like Hitachiin Hikaru/Kaoru from OURAN HS HOST CLUB.. OMFGG!!

Orange Hair, Sharp yet SEXY (Yukk i hate that word) EYES, and he dresses almost the SAME. KYAAAAAAAAA!! >__< SQUEEL SQUEEL SCREAM SCREAM.

Anyways..DAMN I regret not talking to him, he was getting on the bus and I was getting off.

WAIT...FREEZE!!!

He must live close to me if he catches bus from there! CHANCE!

HAHA! Sigh* I don't know why but just writing this relieved everything. I don't know if my Azn friends will read this. Not including the 2 of you, the one who starts with F & C. But I've been really upset lately.

I don't know. HECK. I doubt it's the Trials. I don't care.

Well the story goes on like this. Ever since that smartass, sex maniac, and EXTREME F**KING BOSSY Chloe came into our group. It just fell. I tried to talk to her today but I F**KING SWEAR! NEver even ONCE that i NEVER get pissed at her.

So what if i teased her a bit that I can't read her Chinese writing? And then she comeback at me saying I suck at Chinese. I don't know, That just put me down HEAPs.

I never said my Chinese is good and I really do admit that my Chinese is below average but she doesn't have the right to criticize me. Right?

And Mirable starts ignoring me these days...not that I really care but even SARAH! OMGG! PISSES THE FCUK OUTTA ME.

BUT!! HEHE! ^__^

Anime cheers me up!..

OH YEAH! The person who has the initial of C.H. I still love Inu.

^___^ HAHAHA! Let's go out together sometime C.H.!

Love you 3 who mainly read my blog.!

P.S To the person with the initial of F.L, Sorry for the way I treat you. I don't want forgiveness, I just wanna say Sorry.

6th August.

Needles, X-RAY, HOT GUY, And Anime to cheer me up.

NO PIC 4 hotGUY
OUCHIE! >__<>

I hate them. I Hate Them. I HATE THEM!

AND BESIDES!

Today that darn idiot, no brained lady stabbed my vein twice.

/ESUS CHR/ST!!!

couldn't help but leaked out my tears. Oh well. I went alone, and I'm the youngest in the clinic.

A LITTLE BIT AWKWARD.

AND AND

I had to take off all my clothes for an X-RAY. WAHH >_<>

Went home, had a sleep because my blood filled up 4 bottles. Loss of blood >______<

And watch Ouran High School Host Club.

I LOVE YOU HIKARU & KAORU!

Umm...PLanning to go to school library tomorrow. But don't plan to go to any classes.

DONE FOR NOW!

xoxo: Leanne.

5th August 2009

All.ALONE.4.now

Well, I went to the Doctors as planned. He said I'm in concern for having Swine Flu. Because I've been sick for 1 & 1/2 week. So I don't know.

I felt pretty bad. Nearly wanted to cry but I didn't.

Went to School to pick up some stuff and ask Mrs. Moctezuma something (MY ESL TEACHER), and I told her about my Swine Flu sickness thing. And she got scared of me. That's when I REALLY wanted to cry.

Tomorrow I'm going to get my Blood test done and X-Rays done. Since I... no, not me, the DOCTORS have to confirm about my sickness. I wonder what they'll do to me if I really have Swine Flu.

I'm confused.
Anyone, just anyone tell me what to do.

xoxo: Leanne

Listening: My Brand New Way- Teppei Koike.

4th August '09

童話 - Fairytale

Today I stayed at home too. Was looking forward to go see the doctors but apparently there's no time for me to book in.

I watched 光良's 童話 MV. I cried again. ^^" Everytime I watch that, I end up crying. So anyone who reads my blog make sure to watch it if you haven't.

張開雙手

變成翅膀守護你

Favourite Quote from the song. It's a beautiful song.

I made a doctors appointment tomorrow. Which is 5th of August at 10.20 a.m.

Hope I don't have Swine Flu. Fingers Crossed.

xoxo: Leanne

3rd August 2009

Swine Flu.

Definition: It is a general term for influenza viruses adapted to pigs, causing a respiratory disease in the animals. There are many different strains. The disease is caused by a type A influenza virus, and the new strain belongs to the most common subtype, known as H1N1. Swine flu can infect humans. In such cases, it is most often transmitted from a pig to someone handling the animal. Swine flu can pass from human to human through coughing, sneezing or touching infected people or surfaces and then touching your mouth or nose. It is not contracted by eating thoroughly cooked pork. (theage.com.au)

Sigh*.. I think i have the Swine Flu.

HA! I think it's a revenge, since I always laughed at those who have it. Oh well. It is a punishment from God.

Haven't been to school for a LONG time. Haven't seen my friends, avoiding my friends. Wait wait, let me rephrase that, I should say, they're ignoring me except for some people.

I think I have a 90% chance I'm having it. Since I have all the symptoms and signs.

Symptoms: Fever, fatigue, sore throat, cough, poor appetite, body aches and chills.

Yep, I have it. I'm having a fever right now.

So anyone who's reading my blog. Please Be careful of Swine Flu (H1N1).

xoxo: Leanne